There is a saying as what you suspect of others is what you do yourself. There is a truth to it. Though others might have clean concience, we sometimes suspect them of doing bad things againt us just because we think they are capable of doing it based on our experiences. What if we are absolutely wrong? It is indeed unfair for others. The worst is when we suspect wrongly those who love us. In my case I suspect one who is unfortunate. I feel guilty. 

What brought to this was just a simple text. She texted me a quote which I interpreted as she implied she disliked how I treated her. Then it was the start of sarcastic exchange of texts if I deciphered it correctly. 

It was true that most of the time I was being unfair to her. The cause is another story. I gradually became cold to her when I felt I was betrayed by her. Her credibility for me was dubious. I became vindictive due to the pain I experienced.

I have no solid idea of what kind of person she is. She has never made me feel I am worthy of her trust. There were circumstances wherein she showed the exact opposite of the good person I expected from her. I do not know her for almost four years we have been together as friends. I do not know if it is even right to say she is my friend and vice versa.

The only way we can solve it is by communicating. Who should be the first to? I doubt if she would. The only thing I have in mind is if she is worth the effort.